The Engagement - 22 June 2013

Though my engagement was last year, 22 June 2013....(sorry lah, da basi kan)
I just thought that I'd like to share with you (no harm aper) since I kinda just started blogging about my BTB journey ;)


My Engagement Ceremony was err...not so simple yet not so lavish..
Some of the stuffs are sponsored..erm...i think by saying 'gifts' are better kan? haha! My sis hadiah kan photographer, mum on the tukang mask, my other sister on the cake buat pihak lelaki and my close friend, Fazean, who makes up for me didnt wanna accept any payment from me and says that it is a sincere gift from her as she da niat...Masya Allah.....
The dulang hantaran all decorated by mum's best friend daughter (her name is Kak Liza, she's creative I tell ya!)
Ouh, and the dress, mum bought it at a price of less den $50...alah, kat geylang jer..hehe!!

And I didnt sit in my room for the ceremony. Mum wanted me to sit at the balcony as she wants me to hear and watch the whole thing. She also place 2 chairs as she didnt want the aunt, who's gonna wear the ring for me, to stand while doing so (macam tak sopan gitu aku dudok abeh makcik kene diri sarungkan cincin) adding to that, mum say "nanti tengah ramai orang semua nak amek gambar abeh makcik tu diri sarungkan kau cincin, nanti teramek gambar bontot dia plak" eh eh mak aku ni pon..haha!!! Tapi ada betul nyer jgk kan :)

My parents book the void deck (just a small space) for the makan2 and karaoke....well, I shall post some pics to share with you all k....not much pics sebab this lady here is freaking lazy lah gitu...nyehehehe!

Wak Jawa did came down too, but that was only after his side had went home coz we wanted to take pic sama2 :)

But let me tell you, it was during the haze period...the PSI was already 300 plus! OMG!!!
The night before I really solat and berdoa untuk sempurnakan dan permudah kan segala urusan ku, I cried seh....
I was worried coz the makan2 was held at the void deck and with the haze and stuffs takot ramai tak akan hadir and afraid the haze might contaminate the food and will lead to food poisoning to those who consume it...byk sgt fikiran I tell u!!
On the day itself when I went to the Hair Salon to curl my hair, I was accompanied by my cousins and they were like ;
"kakak....the haze is bad seh...."
"kak...the haze niari mcm makin terok jer.."
"kak, majlis maseh go on eh?"
OMG!!! DIAM SIA KORANG!!!!
I was on the verge of breaking down but somehow I did manage to compose myself..Alhamdulillah.


My Primary school mate works at the salon and she gave me a discount...yeay!! Jadilah kan...rezeki aku lah eh..haha!!


So, after the simple hair set up, we went back home and Fazean already reach my place..

Time for Make up!!!!!

I told Fazean that I wanted my make up to be pure and simple like Malaque's. 

Im sure she did a great job right?

(the bouquet was a gift from my aunt, i didnt realise its the same as Malaque's as well until i did

 this frame)

Why the so called 'Princess' look? Because Wak Jawa calles me his Princess, hence I want to feel like a princess lah kan...(kesian eh nak feeling) LOL!

Ok...ni tgh get ready lah gitu..LOL!!!

Muka ada senyum..!! hehe!

His aunt, from his dad side who wears the

ring for me. (kan cantik duduk sama2..hehe)

Cincin sua sarong....sua jadi tunang orang! haha!

(sorry eh, don't mind the gemok fingers)

                                 

I was only working for 2 months with my new job

and I did invite my new colleagues, so touched

that they came, even surprised that my Director

came as well :)

This is Wak Jawa's younger brother

and his girlfriend :)

Was touched that my bestie, Ziedah baked

this brownie for me, for the exchange of the

dulang hantaran :)

(she makes the best brownie!!)

My family with my grandparents :)

Love you all lah siak!!

And lastly.......

We're ENGAGED!!!!

22/06/13

~princess boyan signing off~

I already know.....what I wanted for my wedding!!

Having my eldest and younger sister who got married before me, I knew how to roughly plan on wedding and stuffs (konon da ada experience lah gitu).
And I also know which vendor to take as I have met a few....
I also did my own research and finally came to a decision......

It is not easy I tell you, especially when it concerns the once in a lifetime event...
and I definitely want a good cameraman who can capture these moments as me and my spouse is gonna look at the album for our entire life! I do not mind paying more for quality :)
*tak boleh bawak main2 siol*

Even before the engagement I already plan on who I wanted for Bridal, Photography, Videography, Deco...
Entertainment, Catering, Dulang Hantaran all Mum got a lot of lobang...
Kompang all his side mah....

My wedding is not a lavish one lah....just a simple event where Wak Jawa and myself would like to share our love with our family and friends :)

I shall share with you the journey on my plans for choosing the vendors once I have shared with you my engagement journey ok?

Till den....see you soon!!

~Princess Boyan Signing Off~

The Plan for Engagement......

My family did not manage to perform for Umrah as my mum fell ill and collapse while at work on 09 January. She had Brain Aneurysm, which means that one of her blood vessel in the brain burst. Our family was feeling at our worse because she collapse on my Grandfather's birthday and the very next day is my Dad's birthday and on that day that she collapse, my younger sis found out that she was pregnant and is waiting for Mum to end work to tell her.
She was warded in ICU for almost a month and the only thing on my mind was "will mum get to see me married?"
Everyday I prayed and doa to Allah......
 
Alhamdulillah mum survived the 8 hours long operation that she has to undergo to clip the burst blood vessel. And till now, mum is on long sick leave....
from 9 January 2013 till today, 24 December 2013......lama kan? She is progressing well and she is able to do the normal duties however she is not strong as before lah. So wherever she go, we will not let her be alone.
 
Touching part, my parents and Wak Jawa parents have never met but they actually come down to visit my mum when she was in ICU...eh.....sweet kaper!!!!! touching eh...
They also did a small kenduri and cooked the bubur merah for mum to get well soon..eh eh.....nak nangis siol!!!!!!! asal sweet sangat bakal mertua ku??!!!! Sayang sangat lah!
 
Now back to the planning....
After da masok meminang session during April, we finally decided on the date. Since me and Wak Jawa wanted in June, we all agreed on 22 June 2013, Saturday.
 
Me and Wak Jawa planned on a simple 'just sarung cincin' event. Dulang setakat 3-4 with food only. Setakat jemput ahli keluarga terdekat furthermore my mum not that well right, don wanna tire her lah.
 
A few weeks later his mum mentioned that she has bought for me kain, sejadah,telekung and etc for the dulang.........eh eh.....macam nak nikah plak..haha!!! (I can understand coz its their 1st child mah)
And when his dad says that they want to pasang mini tentage kat depan rumah and inviting guests of 200 I was like -


Yes, anjat gegirl!!!! When I told my mum about it, she was happy because that is also what she wanted, to have a majlis. Haiz, mak aku ni pon....orang tanak penat kan dia.......
I also had a talk with Wak Jawa....he said to just follow if that's what our mum wanted...
I berdegil still wanna have it my way but what Wak Jawa said really change my mind...
"Awak, remember that time when you almost lost your mum? You don't want to live with regret of not fulfilling her wish right? Mak ayah kita ni besar hati anak2 da nak membina hidup baru...biarlah kita ikut jer cakap dorang k...."
Hmmmm....ok boss!!

I already knew who I wanted to doll me up on my day so senang lah, its a close fren of mine...
dulang all DIY from my mum's best friend nyer anak...
deco pon siket2 lah use her...makan2 all will be at the void deck.....
my void deck space just a small one lah...with karaoke sponsored by my Dad's friend...melampau eh! I initially didn't want the karaoke but Dad say "kan bosan orang dudok takder music.."
ok lah Ayah.....suka hati k....haha!!

I bought some stuffs for him. He liked Abercrombie & Fitch T-shirt and cologne so I bought it for the exchange gifts.
Wak Jawa don't really like to wear ring but he wanted to have a ring for the 'tanda tunang' (merepek kan dekni) haha!! He said "saya memang tak pakai cincin tapi tunang ni saya nak pakai jadi orang tahu saya taken..." eh....tak perlu eh perangai! haha!!! He likes watches too, so tanda tunang I bought both cincin and watch :)

For me, initially I let his mum choose for me lah....but while walking around town, I fell in love with this 0.7ct solitaire ring (you know that moment when you have already fall in love on something and you fell like that is the one..its like true love) ok, jgn macam paham! And during that time, there was a great offer and it was a freaking good deal. I immediately called Wak Jawa on this and told him to ask his mum if she is ok with it, of course I will need her to come down the shop to see the ring lah....
Alhamdulillah she is ok with it as long as I liked it..yeay!!!

Now just counting down to the special day :)

~Princess Boyan Signing Off~
 

How he asked my Parents....hand in marriage...nyehehe!!

The week after meeting his parents -

We were from work and we finished the same time. I was with him at NTUC when his mum called, he said that he is with me and straightaway his mum asked me to come by.

I didn't really wanna go to his house because I am still in my uniform and kasut kerja with my stockings all....confirm bacen! But Wak Jawa insisted for me to come as his mum already pelawa, nanti kecik hati plak kan....so I went, of course I asked for my mum permission 1st and she allowed.

FYI, both of us ni actually anak mak.........so anything that we do, we would ask mum 1st :)

So we reached his house and his mum had actually cooked....we ate and talk when his father came back home from work. His father sat down with us and without any pause, he said "Cik da bincang dgn makcik.....cik ingat, lepas Khalilah balek umrah, cik nak hantar pihak cik untuk masuk meminang..."
He also added "Khalilah pergi umrah bulan March, cik antar pihak cik untuk masok meminang bulan April...bulan June tarikh pertunangan..."
EEeeerrrkrkkkkk!!!! cepat per planning!!! anjat gegirl!
I just smiled and said that I will also have to discuss with my parents also...and they are ok with it. I can understand the excitement that his parents is having now because Wak Jawa is their 1st born mah.....

Me and Wak Jawa never mentioned further on the masok meminang or what, we only planned for our engagement to be in June as both our birthdays fall on the same month. Mine is 11 June where as he's 09 June.

Hats off lah to the parents....planning lagi baik dari kita...haha!!

So Wak Jawa was sending me home when my mum called to ask my whereabouts. I told her that I am on the way home and that Wak Jawa is with me, my mum immediately told me to bring him home......I was abit reluctant at 1st but when mum said "ajak lah dia datang rumah....abeh dia da bawak anak aku pergi rumah dia 2 kali, dia tak kan tanak dtg sini.....?" ah kan, mak da berbual...hahaha!

So he came to my house and met my parents.......
And out of nowhere, I suddenly said to my Wak Jawa in front of my parents "Awak......you got something to say to my parents right??" *GASP*
Where in the frigging hell did that come from? I do not even know......but Wak Jawa was cool about it (dekni memang cool jer)
He said "Pakcik, makcik......kalau takder apa2 halangan, Insya Allah bulan April nanti saya hantar pihak saya dating masok meminang anak cik....saya nak mintak restu pakcik dgn makcik..."
I can see mum was getting emotional.....she wanted to cry but step maintain ah tu.....but she smiled and asked us "korang dua2 da fikir masak2? betul korang ni suka sama suka..?"
I said "tak lah ma...dia yg giler2 kan orang...." LOL!!! aper lah mak aku nie tanyer mcm gitu...haha!!!!
Mum replied "eeiippp!!! kau ni pon....tak baik tau cakap gitu depan bakal suami kau.."
*ah kan, aku da kene*
She continued "cik memang merestui lagi2 klau bende yang baik, tak usah lmbt2 kan....cik doakan yang terbaik untuk korang dua.."
Ok, ni part bapak aku merepek.....
"Abeh rombongan nanti nak antar braper ramai orang? dua tiga kereta tak main ah....nak antar, satu lorry skali..."
*SLAPS FOREHEAD*
Yes, that's my dad lor....dia memang kaki gurau one.......
Wak Jawa replied "itu belum tau cik, klau nak antar meminang mungkin makcik dan pakcik saya jer dgn mak ayah....."
Dad say "takperlah.....itu nanti kita boleh runding yer....cik nak Fairuz jaga Khalilah baik2...Khalilah pon kene jaga Fairuz baik2...."
My mun den sampuk "ah...ni cik nak bilang, si Khalilah nie dia angin....perangai dier asek nak marah jer...klau dier salah Fairuz marah jer dia...cik kasi green light.."
EH EH MAK AKU....!!!!! Hahaha!! Yes, both my parents memang kaki merepek one......

After that meet ups with my parents and his parents, we both sat down and I said.....
"OMG!! this is happening like freaking fast or what..!"
Wak Jawa replied "tulah...tak sangka eh.....terima kasih awak sudi terima saya.."
ah kan....die da start die peh formal speech..LOL!!
but den, it is just him lah......sometimes I felt that I have to tapis siket my percakapan, coz when I introduced him to my best friend from ITE, they told me that our perwatakan jauh berbeza.....haha!! yeah..yeah......memang jauh lor...
coz im like the bising plus kecoh girl where as he is the cool and sopan type....oh well, opposite attracts lah gitu...

I'll update you all on the engagement soon aite? :)

~Princess Boyan Signing Off~

'Surprise' Meet His Parents Session

And so, he asked me out on 01 January 2013, Tuesday.

He just say that he wants me to accompany him eat at Habibie and I agreed. But I reminded him that I am looking at my worse as I had just did my 'Bekam Darah' on my back and the sides of my forehead area but he was fine with it and I keep on reminding him not to be ashamed if people were to stare.

Let me show you the pics - taken from my instagram

 

 

 

 

Ugly right???

Oh, Wak Jawa also told me to wear 'appropriately'......hmmm, im not the kind to wear sexy2, mampos mak aku lempang nanti! LOL! I find it kinda weird lor that he is saying something like that when we are only gonna eat at Habibie..and he said that he will be fetching me from my house but I told him that since Habibie is nearer to his house, I shall just meet him there but he still insist to fetch me and to avoid any unnecessary quarrel, I agreed.

 

345pm he texted that he had reached my void deck. I came down and he looked at me with the sweetest smile and say "terima kasih kerana awak sudi teman saya.."

eh eh ni Wak Jawa..aper hal nak formal2 eh??!! But den again, he is the kind yang berbual sopan....that is him lah. Our language is all 'Awak' 'Saya' kind...so yeah....

 

He rides, so I was wearing my maxi dress (pandai kan??!!) but luckily its only in the Tampines area lor...While on the way, he suddenly turn in to enter a HDB carpark. So I asked him...

 

Me : "Where are we going? Ini bukan jalan nak gi Habibie.."
Him : "alamak awak...sorry...saya luper beg duit saya...'

Me : "alah...saya kan ada.....don worry lah...I'll pay..

Him : "eh tak bolek awak..cash card saya ada dlm beg duit...saya nak top up.."

 

I relented lor....as he parked his bike and took off his helmet, I didn't took off mine and say..

Me : "awak pergi lah amek...saya tunggu sini k.."

Him : "ermmm...actually kan....errrr....sebenarnyer....Habibie yang kiter nak pergi kat sini, Rumah saya.....mak saya masak, dia tau awak nak datang..

WHAT????!!!!!! *^&*^*&^&*#$@$#$^$#!%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

How would you all feel eh???? da lah tengah burok bekas bekam darah lom hilang, rambut plak belah tengah nak cover bekam kat tepi..abeh dtg tangang kosong!!! With my raised voice I kinda scolded him...

Me : "eh.....merepek eh awak!!!!"

Him : "tak....tak merepek..betul..."

Me : "saya dalah tengah gini (while showing my centre part hair and the bekam marks) abeh datang tak bawak apa2...saya tanak lah pergi rumah awak...." (he keeps on putting his finger on his mouth and told me to lower my voice..i noticed he keeps on pulling me to the sides)

Him : "awak..jgn lah mcm gini....saya mintak maaf tak bilang awak tapi klau saya bilang awak nak jumpa mak ayah saya, mesti awak tanak dtg sebab awak tengah dalam keadaan mcm gini...tapi saya nak awak tau, saya terima awak dalam apa keadaan juga...I will still want you even if you are looking at your worst...." (dalam hati aku da senyum kambing..sweet kaper siak dekni!!!!)

Me : "haiz......I just feel bad that I come empty handed lah...its not nice you know..."

Him : "alah awak...mama saya tak kisah lah.."

Me : "Tapi saya kisah...mama saya tak ajar saya gini.."

Him : "Takper lah awak..lain kali klau datang baru bleh bawak something lah...for today, tak yah k.."

Me : "Ok fine....I will still go meet ur parents eh....but bear this in mind, Im still angry at you..."

 

So we walked...and was shocked that his house is indeed at level 1!!!

*remember the dream I had*

It is exactly like how I had seen in my dream!!! The colour, the shape, everything...same! but that's just the outside.....

"Assalamualaikum...." both of us beri salam......
His mum came to the door with her telekung as she nak solat asar......

He told his mum that I was angry....mak ai!!!! tak perlu bilang seh!!!

His mum asked "khalilah, kenapa marah nak..?"

I replied "eh cik...saya tak marah..hehe....dia jer tak bilang yang dia nak bawak saya dtg rumah..."

She spoke to Wak Jawa dengan lembut "Abang...kenapa abang tak bilang? mama kan tak ajar anak2 mama bohong......" And we laughed it off....

I stepped in and walah......the interior of his house is really exactly of what I had seen in my dreams...Ya Allah, kau benar2 beri ku petunjuk....Masya Allah....
I was greeted by a sweet young lady, Rosie, it was his brother's girlfriend....
His dad is still in the room where as his brother is showering...

I sat there and made small conversation with Rosie.

(In my mind..he was really planning this whole thing eh....suker lah surprise2..haha!)

His father came out...I beri salam and we exchanged a few words.....His mum had already finished her prayers and called Rosie to help her in the kitchen...I offered to help too but was politely declined..

"takper nak......Khalilah kan tetamu...dudok jer luar...lain kali dtg baru boleh tolong.."\

nyehehehe!

I insist on helping lah but Wak Jawa told me to sit outside....haha!! Kesian eh kene halau! LOL!!!!

 

While sitting down, his brother came out and we smiled. Wak Jawa sat beside me and smiled at me like a budak tongong like that...as I am still angry at him, I jeling him. So he called me softly and when I looked at him, he gave his smile again.....eh dekni irritating kan!!!! I quickly smiled at Wak Jawa when I saw that his mum tengah cui us from the kitchen....Wak Jawa asked "eh? awak da ok??? da tak marah saya lagik?" I said "Aku maseh marah lah,...tadi mak kau tgk kiter!" LOL!!!!!!

 

And so the food is served,mak dia masak sedap wei!! We ate and chatted....his parents asked me this and that and they also asked me on my plan for my umrah trip with my family....Yes, I was planning on going for my umrah somewhere around March 2013, Insya Allah......

 

And the day ended well..Alhamdulillah.

I was pleased with the whole meet the parents session, though it was impromptu, it turned out well! Yeay!!!!

 

When I got home, I shared the story with my mum and we laughed non stop!

 

Alhamdulillah :)

 

 

~Princess Boyan Signing Off~

The Proposal

We never dated....

We were not even girlfriend/boyfriend.

We knew each other for less den a month when he proposed.

Yes, less den a month of knowing each other Wak Jawa proposed to me! Berani eh ni anak...haha!

Well here's how it happened.

I had a dream. In my dream, I was surrounded by my parents and elder sis...yes, surrounded eh! They were talking things like "ingat, da kawin ni byk dugaan nye" "kau skrng da jadi seorang isteri, dengar cakap suami, jaga makan minum dan pakaian suami" 

You know lah kan...all those pesanan dari orang tua to someone who just got married...

*huh? aku da kawin eh? siapa suami aku siol?*

So after kena hang with all the pesanan, I went into my room to solat...while tengah solat and coming to the last rakaat, my 'husband' came in the room and he was looking out the window....

I finished my prayers and immediately went to him (yelah, nak tau jugak siapa she suami ku!)

I tapped him on the shoulder and asked "excuse me, are u my husband?" eh..aper peh soalan eh! kekek per..but hey, its a dream mah, i cant control it..haha!

My 'husband' turned and........TADA!!!! its Wak Jawa!!! (damn! ingatkan Taufik Batisah kaper!)

He replied "Yes, I am.."

So before we went to bed he said "besok kita jumpa mak dgn ayah saya k?"
I nodded and both turn in to sleep...
The next day, we reached his house.....
In my dream, he stayed at a HDB house at level 1.....rumah tingkat bawah where the entrance door steps is high.
After beri salam, both his parents went to the door and he introduced me...
"mak, ayah...ni Khalilah, isteri saya..."
Both his parents are shocked! They didnt even know that he was married....
His mum merajuk and went in even without acknowledging me but his dad was nice. I salam him and he asked me to come in....
I woke up straightaway......

What a weird dream eh......

I immediately called Wak Jawa.....ceritakan dia and guess wat was his reply????
"Amin kepada mimpi awak..."
eh eh ni mamat......aper yg nak amin kan? bukan nyer aku ada hati kat kau pon (seriously, i do not have feelings for him)

and then he popped the question....(on the phone eh...)
"khalilah, saya betul2 nak memperisterikan awak....."

I brushed him off....
i changed subject.....
aper siak ni jantan? belom kenal aku betul2 da nak kawin...giler kaper???????
he asked me again....but i ignored him....

whatever lah mamat....aku baru kene tinggal dengan ex aku aleh2 dekni nak carik pasal plak nak ajak kawin? aku baru nak mula hidup baru konon nak single mingle dating2 dekni da melamar! aku baru nak perangai stalker carik Taufik Batisah tinggal maner sebab nak ajak dia date dekni nak masok meminang......hahahaha!!!
Guess what, Wak Jawa tak give up k!

on 30th January 2012.......

Wak Jawa just came back from work at midnight, he was in the afternoon shift that day when he said that he wanna talk to me on the phone....so, i waited for him to settle down and we chatted. While chatting, he popped the question again. And this time, he was being serious. Kakak pon start ah serious business dgn dekni...
I asked him a lot of questions..some of them were..

1. You do not even know me..why do u wanna get married?
2. Are you running away from something? Are you in debt or what?
3. Why should I accept ur proposal?
4. Are you willing to accept me for who i am now and forget about my past?

There's alot more but I shall not mention all lah kan..haha!
I told him "saya nyer perangai burok tau lagik2 klau menses....awak boleh ker tahan?"
eh....of course ah kene terus terang dulu.....
Alhamdulillah he accepted lor....
but 1 thing that made me say YES to the proposal is when he said...
"Khalilah, saya betul2 nak memperisterikan awak...saya hormat awak sebagai seorang wanita dan bakal ibu kepada anak2 saya...saya tak akan sentuh awak sehingga kita nikah..."

Masya Allah! 

Double Yes!!!!!!!!

After we hang up the phone I prayed....no, bukan nak doa untuk mintak petunjuk if he is the one...instead in my doa I said...
"Ya Allah, Ya Tuhan ku, jika benar dialah bakal imam ku, aku terima..."
and I cried......sebab sayu sgt.......after that, things progressed, Alhamdulillah....

The next day, I slept over my sis place and spent my countdown to 2013 with my lovely nieces....
Wak Jawa said that he wanna meet me the next day, which is already 01 Januay 2013....yeay!!!!

A surprise visit happened on 01 January 2013...wanna noe wat? 
Read up my next blog..!!!!

~Princess Boyan Signing Off~

That Sad Story....

Well, I did mentioned in my previous blog that I was down at the moment and I did not even
wanna log in to my FB.

Here, I'm not penning down the whole story of my saddest moment of my life however just a brief info ;)

The year 2012 was the worst year for me.....
I was left by the man whom I thought was the one...
He left me without saying anything, just like that, disappear with the wind.
He log in to my FB and even deleted all his pictures, pictures of us dan sewaktu dengan nyer..haha!!
I was shocked....ok fine, he even said that he wanted a time of for a week.
2 weeks gone and he didn't even call or text me....
Weeks slowly come to months, I tried calling and texting him but he did not even replied.
Even on my birthday, he didn't even wish me....

Tup Tup.......Nampak gambar kawin dia kat FB.....
Astarghfirullah....!!!
How would you feel if you were in my shoes? :(
dapat tau pon from my younger sis who whatsapped the pics to our Family Group Chat.

We've been together for 4 years, everything is fine....
He's 8 years older den me and ouh, he's a divorcee with 3 kiddos :)
I don care about status, belum tentu kita dengan orang yang single boleh hidup bahagia...betul tak?

I wasn't at home when she send me those pics........so when I got home, I tried to avoid my family members from asking me questions..i just needed to be alone...
well, im not the kind who cries in front of other's, I can definitely hold back my tears but that moment when my mum went into my room and asked "kakak....u ok..?"
teros nangis....part dgn mak slalu lembik!
I cried and she hug me tight, habis baju butterfly mak aku basah..haha!
She gave me all the words of affirmation,encouragement,perseverance (ok, merepek eh!) i nangis kuat2, tak pernah seh nangis mcm gitu...

This incident did make me reflect on myself...it might be me, who noes i byk kekurangan, that trigger him not to want me...oh well :(

I immediately prayed....
untuk kuat kan hati, tabah kan diri ku untuk tempuh dugaan ini...

The very next day I became stronger and managed to let go of all the sadness....
He's already married, wishing him  a blissful marriage and be happy always :)

Buat apa nak marah2? let it go....take this as a lesson learn and move on with life...
Setiap kejadian yang berlaku ada hikmah nya...
Setiap benda yang Allah tarik dari kita, Insya Allah digantikan dengan yang leih baik...

Da.....da..tanak cerita sedih lagik please...
Nanti I continue lagik k dengan cerita dengan Wak Jawa :)

~Princess Boyan Signing Off~